Space Station Solaris

the stone roses is so adorable.

for Midorikawa Hikaru.
really feeling so regretful for not going to the fans meeting.  :(

and the Morikawa Toshiyuki's fans meeting in the summer too.
so so regretful.

1.
i was practicing Czerny 299 when feeling absolutely drained.
i was 17 years old when began to learn to play piano. and this summer at my 18's birthday i began to take it seriously. these 3 months everyone was saying that i'd made great progress, but now im feeling it an absolute disaster since i know i cant make the same progress in the next 3 months. Czerny makes me sick, Mozart makes me sick, Chopin kills me.
is 18 just a little bit too late for learning piano?

2.
oh boy, i miss that lady i met years ago.
and i miss my days with you too. sigh. but unless anyone asked for proposal, i would rather stay alone.
i want to meet the person, who, i will spend my whole life with. perhaps.

3.
im feeling so frustrated when listening to Nikita Magaloff's Chopin Etudes. =[
Op.10 No.3 is really really a sad song. each time i hear it i wanna cry for every sad days i live.
and it makes me sick when i listened and noticed that i wouldnt be able to play them.